Today was such a good day. I woke up in a good mood
(probably because I fell asleep in a really good mood), and I took on the rest
of the day with positive eyes. It’s amazing what perspective can do for one’s
attitude and mindset!
I struggled last night, but turned to the Lord, received
prayers, and ultimately felt at peace by the time I closed my eyes. That peace
carried over into today. I swear I had a smile plastered on my face the entire
day! After class in the morning and after lunch, I met with my mentor to talk
about my journey and where I am in my life right now. What a different position
I am in now than I was 28 days ago! A lot can change in four weeks! And all the
credit goes to my Lord. He has radically changed my heart, my mind, and my
perspective on how to approach life. What a blessing this challenge has been.
A few people have asked me what I thought about Friday being
the last day of this challenge. I hadn’t thought about it until recently, but
when I did think about it this was my response:
I’m excited, but I’m kind of scared. I’m scared to now have
that crutch of makeup I can turn to if I’m feeling insecure, instead of turning
to the Lord. I know that just because it will be available to me, doesn’t mean
I have to turn to it. But the temptation will always be there. I’ve grown to
love myself so much without makeup I don’t want to jeopardize that by wearing
it again. I’m scared to fall back into that same mentality I had when I started
this.
My favorite response was, “No amount of makeup will change
how beautiful you are in the eyes of those that have been given the opportunity
to get to know you.”
The only opinions that matter are from those who know my
heart. I said that in an earlier post, and I need to continually reiterate that
to myself. No other opinions matter. I know myself. I know my heart. I am so
beautiful because the Lord is shining through me that nothing can mask that. I
should not be afraid, because I have Jesus in me.
“For the Lord has not given us a spirit of fear, but of
power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7
The foundation we turn to to cover up our blemishes should
not be found in a bottle, the foundation that has already covered all of our
blemishes was found on the cross. Crucified. Laying all of our sins down so
that we could live in eternity. We don’t have to worry. Jesus laid His OWN
PERFECT life down for each of us so that when God looks down on us all He sees
is white. No blemishes. He sees the Holy Spirit in us, and we are given the
opportunity to live for Him and honor Him because He has already done so much
for us.
It seems so silly to me now that I placed so much of my
value in the opinions of others. Good opinions or bad opinions, both will mean
nothing when the time comes for us to meet our Lord. Everything on this earth
is fleeting. The only thing that will matter in the end is everything we did in
our lives to honor and glorify our God. I hope He is smiling down at me,
because I am smiling up at Him right now. He has done so much for me, someone
so unworthy, who am I to not do everything I can to give back to Him? I owe my
life to Him. He saved me, and continues to save me every day. The least I can
do is proclaim His holy name to those around me and try to glorify Him in all
aspects of my life.
Wearing makeup is not a bad thing. It only became bad when I
used it as an idol, to manipulate others’ opinions about me in my favor. I will
not swear off makeup for the rest of my life, but when I do wear it, it will be
to enhance the beauty I already have, not to try to ‘cover up’ my insecurities. I
will try each and every day to wake up and ask God to help me live each day for
Him. Because when He is the center of my life, who needs makeup anyway?
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