My Background

Being called beautiful is great. Being complimented is wonderful. Guys, do NOT stop complimenting girls. But after 20 years of hearing the same compliments it has altered my psyche. Not everyone is affected like me but this is just how it has affected me personally. My mindset and my outlook on life and myself have become skewed. I am not proud of the situation I have found myself in right now so I am trying to fix it. I am trying to rely on the Lord for my value and beauty instead of the words of society. This has been something I have struggled with for years now, and after months of prayer I believe God has been putting on my heart to stop wearing makeup. I am going to give up makeup for the month of February. I am giving up the crutch that I hide behind so that I can rely solely on God for my happiness. He will use this to break me of my insecurities and find my security in Him and Him alone.

I want guys to see the beauty of my heart not the beauty of my outward appearance. I am tired of chasing those empty opinions and I am trying to focus on the opinion of the only man that truly matters.  My goal is to no longer be a distraction to many; my goal is to be adored by One.  I want for people to eventually see me so confident in myself without makeup and without the crutch of earthly things that they think to themselves, “Wow, whatever she’s doing I want that. Whatever she has I want to know where to get it.” And using this as a platform I can speak about my relationship with Christ and proudly say how He is the only reason I am the way that I am today. This is not going to be an easy 28 days. There will be ups and downs, good days and bad days, but I know that at the end of this I will come out a much better person because of it. And I will learn that in Christ and in Christ alone is where we find our true value. A Month Without Makeup started this morning.

Most of you might think to yourself, why is this girl going so public with this? Why is she sharing this deep part of her life with the world?

Well, my hope is that by me becoming completely vulnerable throughout this process, I can inspire or impact someone’s life for the better. By me exposing my deepest insecurities, and writing about my journey to find my true identity in Christ, that maybe just one person will be willing to let go of their insecurities and find their true identity in Christ as well. If I impact just one person because of this blog then I will be overjoyed. I will be learning and growing throughout this process and my prayer is that my readers will learn and grow too. I need my family of Christian brothers and sisters to keep me in their prayers. I cannot do this alone. But with everyone’s support something great will come of this.